For me this is an interesting topic. I am not a person who cries I don't like it I don't to it often. Friends and Family have seen in it but on rare occasions.
As I get older I do cry more often (or maybe I am finally okay with emotion) I find myself crying at silly things like "Undercover Boss". Those are tears of enlightenment that there are people out there who still do good things. Then I have tears of anger I am so mad I cant scream I just cry, which brings me to tears of sadness, which are the tears I use least (Anger brings on more then sadness). These are the tears I dislike the most I don't like to use them I don't show them often. If they are going to happen it will be in private (like in the shower, or at night by myself) Then there are these tears I cant even describe they just show up and sneak up on you! In the middle of a simple phone call watching a TV show At work while you are alone in the store. Nothing is wrong no explanation they just show up not really a cry but eyes well up and there are tears. Me not being a person comfortable with any tear... I don't understand these and I don't like them If I am going to cry or tear up I need a reason. So here is a quick favor to these tears.. " Dear unexplainable tears please calm down you make me uncomfortable talk to sad, angry, enjoyment and enlightenment. I need a reason for you can, we do something about this?"
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Favorite Hours
I want to start with: I don't feel this way tonight actually very happy with life but it did make me think of past feelings.
Its Funny how I love setting alone in the middle of the night. Sometimes watching a TV Show I dvrd that no one would watch with me as a guilty pleasure. Or watching a drama I missed because of work with a glass of wine. Or even better staying up till the sun comes creating a painting that no one will see but a few as it stays in my own private "Kaci time" room. All great things I love the middle of the night while he is asleep the house is quiet and peaceful the pups on each side of me asleep because even though they are sleeping they still have to protect me. But then there are those nights when its unfulfilled I have no one to touch while we watch TV together or talk to while sharing a glass of wine with. Or having a night to chat with someone on line because who in their right mind is up that time!. So it brings me to a question I don't have an answer for.
"Why is one of my all time favorite times....also, at times one of my loneliest"
Its Funny how I love setting alone in the middle of the night. Sometimes watching a TV Show I dvrd that no one would watch with me as a guilty pleasure. Or watching a drama I missed because of work with a glass of wine. Or even better staying up till the sun comes creating a painting that no one will see but a few as it stays in my own private "Kaci time" room. All great things I love the middle of the night while he is asleep the house is quiet and peaceful the pups on each side of me asleep because even though they are sleeping they still have to protect me. But then there are those nights when its unfulfilled I have no one to touch while we watch TV together or talk to while sharing a glass of wine with. Or having a night to chat with someone on line because who in their right mind is up that time!. So it brings me to a question I don't have an answer for.
"Why is one of my all time favorite times....also, at times one of my loneliest"
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