Favorite Hours

I want to start with: I don't feel this way tonight actually very happy with life but it did make me think of past feelings.

Its Funny how I love setting alone in the middle of the night. Sometimes watching a TV Show I dvrd that no one would watch with me as a guilty pleasure. Or watching a drama I missed because of work with a glass of wine. Or even better staying up till the sun comes creating a painting that no one will see but a few as it stays in my own private "Kaci time" room. All great things I love the middle of the night while he is asleep the house is quiet and peaceful the pups on each side of me asleep because even though they are sleeping they still have to protect me. But then there are those nights when its unfulfilled I have no one to touch while we watch TV together or talk to while sharing a glass of wine with. Or having a night to chat with someone on line because who in their right mind is up that time!. So it brings me to a question I don't have an answer for.
"Why is one of my all time favorite times....also, at times one of my loneliest"